aug 29.2010..
morning of sunday with no sleep and no rest jsut tryng to forget how my world just ended last friday hearing words leading me to the word fired..... it felt so bad that i could not cry but smile and say oooooooooooooo ok im sa gonna be fine like i use too. went out midnight of saturday didnt sleep eat and surf the web afterwards.. could not know what to do next feels just like carefree but still with scars getting deeper just loosing everything by a single snap of a word... what could this just mean to me... justt to ease what had happened i jsut went on listening to music and went on and kept it inside thinking how to work it out... felt so numb as same as before i got that job now i lost that job just felt worst than ... could it be worst then what is next... im totally out of words i just cant stop and let time pass by...this is simply getting to misundastood..depression could be worst that it could get me down as i can.... cant pretend any longer than what i do right now ... could torment me in a future htat i just can not spell at all...
tangled right now .... dont know .....
