hangover

feb 26,2010

an early morning for wide hng over from last night. i was so drunk and so dizzy.my bestfriend with me holding my hands as we flew along.it ws a day of our lives where we had to be hapy together with what is happening..i just could not sto and say hey why cant we be but that is not possble as im taken ..we both have talked about it that keeping hte path of friendship is better that making it worst entering into such boring deeper friendship..

i felt cared and loved when my bf called that he was too worried i was so sorry for making him worried that he could not understand my rel with my best friend..twas then far from having a love quarel with the sorry and explanations..

i hd made it in the edge of every scar in my life no that someone matters most is waht my scars bleed for..surely i would cherrish every moment of this.

horrible day???not much i guess

feb 26.2010
surely igot pissed off my self expecting he would make it but i ahd to understand.i dont aqnt to be demanding for something which it cant happen.i feel horrible haat i was too selfish enough to force him come but he just couldnt.
me and my closest friend and workmate went out strolling killing tie and using energy.we have had few gazing around the store and ate at zola restaurant and had walk to sm.jsut wuite fun and interesting though we both bought a shirt since it were er teacher..

as this moment eases the day it jsut turns out ll day well if you let things flow the way it is ,,it could be realy depressing but it just appears everytime..

the wait

feb 25,2010

time ticks fast and friday comes.have been stugling lately for such dya to come and be done with the struggle,haaay atlast i can enjoy my sweat and pain...
i have been most waiting for this time to come to finaly meet and be with the one who cared of me and cherish my presence..noe along i have fun inlife now and having soem to cling and share sotries upon...

next in line

feb 25,2010

got home as usual pretty tired but i was able to sleep early then.been so occupied htat things are un managed to be done.haven gone to the gym for a while since im getting early strssed. i will go ther once i get time.
i have been searching late ly of something to do in my mind just like keeping htings connected.
i still feel th same way i feel back thne ..thought of not speaking to a person for hte the mean time since i dont have words to say to her then,well time would let things pss by for the mean time though...
its is just life unspoken ...

till it get worse or never

feb 23 2010

home at last from work.waht a stressfull day.my eyes not cooperating latley as im having sore eyes on my right eyes and my eyesight is blurry. gone out eat soem street food near the house with my cousin.just hangin tight and had a good time tlaking with one of the people close to me.we chat and have shared smiles in which everday i hope it would be that way.
im in deep fianncial problem so far but it feels just fine and i dont like the situation hinder anything good that would happen today. done nothin lately but rest and watch some movies abt life and strugges with God and without God...
it take real tie for peole to remember the one above giving us such motivation in life to move..i got this from the movie of manny pacquiao's story...stoy of life and success..

first day of writing

feb 21-2010

today i felt like doing things that would make me ease of the pain of loosing and keeping people close to you..the thirteenth of feb i lost my aunt which was oe of the guardian who had been guiding me all the way since highschool,who thought me to live and love life as it is.it felt so bad that it had to be so soon.it made reflect that life is just one click of the creator then it blows away. it is just so sudden that we could not even do something since we dont have total control on it.each night i cry myself out i feel so empty that each pain is marking everyday of my life,

how log has it been this way since i was a kid.till this moment im turning out to be woman of no feelings to step on to and feel in to. my aunt would have fought so hard to her last breathe that she smiled and finnished her race.it is difficult to think htat what if someday id be that way as her too.not knowing things change and it keep on evolving that i may not notice it.this day all this thoughts poping in my mind..

im loving someone who is really not suposedly for me but then facing the present i cant help it but help him and love him the way he loves me..its just ot difficult it happens to be that way as it shows we are not meant for each other but were fighting to keep it as real intense loe as much as we can. i cant let ime pass away wihtout feeling som uch love as it is guiding me through..as time passes eahc memory would last as much as i can keep it on...for as long as it lasts!!