feb 21-2010
today i felt like doing things that would make me ease of the pain of loosing and keeping people close to you..the thirteenth of feb i lost my aunt which was oe of the guardian who had been guiding me all the way since highschool,who thought me to live and love life as it is.it felt so bad that it had to be so soon.it made reflect that life is just one click of the creator then it blows away. it is just so sudden that we could not even do something since we dont have total control on it.each night i cry myself out i feel so empty that each pain is marking everyday of my life,
how log has it been this way since i was a kid.till this moment im turning out to be woman of no feelings to step on to and feel in to. my aunt would have fought so hard to her last breathe that she smiled and finnished her race.it is difficult to think htat what if someday id be that way as her too.not knowing things change and it keep on evolving that i may not notice it.this day all this thoughts poping in my mind..
im loving someone who is really not suposedly for me but then facing the present i cant help it but help him and love him the way he loves me..its just ot difficult it happens to be that way as it shows we are not meant for each other but were fighting to keep it as real intense loe as much as we can. i cant let ime pass away wihtout feeling som uch love as it is guiding me through..as time passes eahc memory would last as much as i can keep it on...for as long as it lasts!!
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