missing somone??/

may20.2010

i am  here at the route checking out sites that i never check at times,im just so blank and blue right now, i just miss being in his arms every time before i go to my shift, its hard loosing communication even if im just like two blocks away, i was expecting if he would realize i would be waiting at the shed.heist hmpft could not think much of how i hurt him at all times when he request for something he wants from,im just being careful that im trying let him stop crave for that thing that we have be fighting over before when we first started this misery business.. i could not express myself every time his tantrums comes cos he assumes i am doing it to make it cold and off soon. i could not let go  for now i got no apetite at all right now even if food is infornt of me now...i wana go there see him now but i just cant since work is much of a priority not to loose my supply for my life. i have such plans  unaccomplished due to feeling blue right now........