confused and bothered so much

march 12.2010

its been a while i havent written something here.. things were to fast.i could not even remeber things that happen each day tha t passes by..i got caught with the dirty little secret i had with the bro if kim.it felt so ew when you people you living with is thinkling your out of your mind and not using your brains,.,.well obviously my family is against me and him,.i couldnt just stop and deny everything because of fear and just tired of confrontation that leads to nothing so i just had to just keep it and let them think fell nothing ever happend..

i nver got the privacty of my own they always think i am hiding things which obviously even my phone  my other stuff my blog my mail anything whatever,,

well they are still my family and i still believe in them..i know this is realy wrong and it may be wrong but i just want to let things just flow and be it as the way it is,,,,it is pretty much hard for to keep but im getting used to it this time...
it just feels good helping someone out a shell...makingh im feel worth changing for so i had him here..got him a job and a home and the stuff where he could start over,., who am i to blame god gave me blessing to give him help ,,,
this is just breath taking to keep such dirty little secret...