im waiting

july 25.2010
waiting for grace to come and change my life.. i always wanted change but i never tried to see how to change.. hush when will thing go according to plan .. ive made som uch palns and never met one plan in action at all,,,, i'm so dieing already ,,,,
i couldnt have someone to tell all this stuff cos im jyst afraid it would get much woprst instead of better.. im jsut clearly tired of it on and on and on .....

could it just be problem solving in easy mode..im so totaly out of my mind ...so blank and so numb...'
;-( why is ithis so killing me