numb!!

july 25.2010

im getting numb mor and more lately of what is happening with me and him as well as things im going throuhg with all my finances that im always short and so brokeat all times that i jsut wanted to just sleep and never wake up anymore.. problems and all hte stuff is killing bit by bit already...
latley im in a tough decision making wiht him as well cos he is finally setting me free it seems like i dont like cos im already used to having him arround ..used to seeing him do things for me ...it made cry a lot of times more !!!!!!!!!!!!!dont want that anymore...hope to be oever with it anymore..


at home is like a home for numbnes cos im useed to faking wiht all the stuff i do jsut for them not to notice anything  suspicous.hanging out alone with tv and bed to just sleep and do my daily routines...sleep clean and work that it...
 so worried that it might make more identities that taking over me bit by bit,,.,im jsut so freaking tired and retrded rigth now...

im crossing my fingers hat thins would be better once the next month comes that ill be fine wiht finances once i get mmy pay and stuff nad i cross my fingers for a good stats at work and reliablity that im fixing...

hush Lord@!!!! help